To overcome my past I had to confront it.

One of  the most powerful lessons I discovered on my journey to recovery was that the only way for me to overcome the pain of my abusive childhood, and heal was to confront it head on. To face my demons no matter how difficult, no matter how long it took and no matter what I had to do.
So many people want to run from, avoid or try to numb their pain. I know why. Because it hurts like hell. It hurts to face the reality that you’ve been hurt, betrayed abandoned, neglected, abused.
It hurts to confront and accept that your beginning in life wasn’t as it should have been.
And we fear that if we face it, that we’ll not survive the pain. We fear that the hurt and reality will never go away .
But this is not true. The fact that you’re here today means you’ve survived what ever has hurt you. Many people dismiss this very important fact. If you are still here despite everything, despite what you think has hurt you beyond repair is a powerful acknowledgement that you can survive and deal with the pain from your past.
Truthfully, by facing your pain, it’s gonna hurt. There will be hard days. Days you’ll think you can’t do another one like it. But I assure you the more you work through your pain, the less intense it will become. The more you will understand about the event and the limiting beliefs you’ve created about you as a result of the event. The more you will understand about yourself. And as you work through it and come to a place of acceptance, forgiveness and understanding, you will gradually begin to move on and let go of the pain that once consumed you.
I did this with a lot of professional help and my own work.  With professional help, I was able to look at the events surrounding the pain with support and guidance. I was able to safely look at beliefs I had formed as a result and learn to challenge the beliefs and create new ones. There were many days where I didn’t think I could go on. But I continually held onto the belief that facing my pain, was a necessary part of the process of healing and recovery.
Stay strong. I believe in you. xx